Not everything on life will go the way you want it to go, I learned that the hard way. Now I approach everything in my life from a new perspective. I expect the complications/hiccups or as my family refers to them, sand bunkers. And if I am being 100% honest I want them. Why?
Because I am open to growth and change. I am open to learning new ways of figuring out a problem and when I do the AMAZING feeling to ACCOMPLISHMENT is unexplainable.
I mean everything I do, I run into these sand bunkers and looking back at my life journey there were always sand bunkers. At first I used to have the Why me? approach, but at some point something changed and with it came a new understanding for life and all its challenges.
Its been almost 5 years I have been approaching life with this mindset and even though that seems like a long time there is always room for growth and new lessons to be learnt. Like this one below.
This weekend was a crazy one. Last night I was at my wist end. I felt like I got NOTHING done and I was overly stressed about it. I saw the clock ticking away and I was making myself more anxious because I did not get everything that I want done. We did not go to church, I had more loads of laundry to do, we have an overflowing sink, we have no meals cooked for the week, the house looks like if it has been through war, I could not find a book I was looking for and the list goes on. Oh and on top of that add a sick baby to the mix who can't sleep! Talk about emotions everywhere.
I feel like Mickey in the picture below.
Image taken from a google search
I decided to let go! I asked Adam to take Honey and put her to bed and I just took some time to breath, think and try to catch myself. After he got her to bed, Adam and I finished watching Fool's Gold (we have been watching this movie for 3 days now) and I took some time to cuddle up on the coach and just be in the moment. It was the BEST thing I could have done at the time. Again, something I learnt and continue to learn. In moments of complete anxiety and chaos, let go, breathe and just be.
I set my alarm for 5am of course I snoozed until 6am because I was EXHAUSTED. After the movie Honey woke up and I was between feeds from about 3am to 5am. But I crawled out of bed and spent time with the boys as Seth got ready to go back to school.
A bit of panic started coming back as I watched the sink full of wares and the other things that I have to do. So I made a cup of coffee, grabbed a blanket and opened a the book, You are a Badass by Jen Sincero.
I read this book before but I felt like I had to open it this morning.
So I opened it to Part 2: How To Embrace Your Inner Badass. OMG! Message alert!
Everything in that chapter was a message for me today. I cried as I read through the chapter knowing and believing that God was talking to me and letting me know that everything is going to be and is GREAT!
I want to share this message with you, it struck me to my core and I balled as I read it. It is an excerpt from the book.
"APPRECIATE HOW SPECIAL YOU ARE
There will never be anyone exactly like you. You were given special gifts and talents to share with the world, and even though everybody has special gifts and talents, nobody will use theirs quite the same way you do. You have a way of being in the word and a perspective that's unique to you. You are the only one who thinks your thoughts the way you think them. You have created your own unique reality and are living your life according to your own unique path. You are the only you that will ever be. You are kind of a big deal."
After reading this and being open to the message that was directed at me this morning I feel so much better. I am ready to seize the day and tackle every task one at a time.
After I finished reading this chapter and just before I started writing this blog post I realised that I got way more done over the weekend than I thought. Only until I took myself out of the situation I was able to realise that I only have about 2 loads of laundry left from about 10, Adam did the groceries yesterday and even though we did not get to meal prep yesterday we have everything we need to do so today. Seth went took a nap yesterday and he went to bed on time, I checked into my virtual fit club more than I thought and I was able to spend some quality time with Adam last night even though I was exhausted.
On top of that Seth woke up and did his morning routine as seamlessly as possible. He woke up super early, cried a bit to bath but that is normal, he got dressed went downstairs drank his up up, cuddled with me on the couch as I fell back asleep. He ate his breakfast filled the house with laughter before he left. He put on his snow suit, hat, gloves, balaclava and boots with no fussing or crying and he left the house with a smile.
I was so proud of him and I am so beyond blessed and grateful to have him in my life. Another message to me to not stress be anxious or focus on the uncontrollable and to stay focused on everything that brings love, joy and eternal happiness in my life.
In sharing my story my hope for you that you are able to use some of my experiences to help you through yours :) Remember there is no one else in this world like you. You are the only and most amazing you there is! EMBRACE IT!
Cheers to a brand new week and a brand new day!
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